the breakup..

(or, the case of the missing dolls.)

so..

a little (well, long..) update about this last beehive bazaar that i participated in.

i had so much fun, it was just awesome. i loved being a part of it, and i did well. it has been a really big deal to me (in case you couldn't tell..) and is something i plan for and work at a lot.

that said, i don't think i'll be doing it again.

i had planned on it, but then i got my check & list of things that had sold. as i sat and compared their list to mine, i grew sick inside because i was missing six (!) things.

(and by 'things', i mean carefully planned, designed and lovingly hand made one-of-a-kind things like the two dolls pictured above, a tote bag, a pillow, a turtle and a watch.)

that was a hard pill to swallow- and, to their credit, they cut me another check for half the missing amount, which i know they aren't responsible for.

but it's not about the money. i just don't think i can take a loss like that again. it represents a lot of work, and it's just too personal.

apparantly, this is a very rare occurance.

but, as heartbreaking as it is, i won't be doing the bazaar again, and i get the feeling that i might not be welcome back anyways.

--too much of a trouble-maker!

(for the record, i am blogging about it not out of anger or vengance or cattiness, but mostly just because it's a big deal to me, and it's been on my mind.)

in a way, it will be a relief i suppose, since i don't have anywhere to sew but the kitchen table, and my house is a complete disaster in the weeks of preparation before the show.

but, it's mostly a bummer because this was my 'thing'.

and i loved it.

i still have etsy, i suppose, but i've never been very succesful there. and there is no other craft show (i've seen) like the bazaar and no other i am interested in participating in.

it really does feel like a breakup to me!

okay.

moving on.